this topsy-turvy world ;

20060129
00:50

earCANDY: bi [ rain ] - sad tango

so, the reunion dinner went well. had steamboat, as usual, along with a bowl of shark's fin soup and yusheng. by the time i left my aunt's hse, i could barely walk. but you know what? it's all worth it bcos i know i had AWESOME food. haha.

anyway, i think the genes that code for greediness runs in my family. or at least, my paternal side. EVERYBODY eats a whole damn lot! my uncles, aunties, parents, and grandmother included. even my little cousins eat so much. quite scary. hahaha. but even though we eat alot, thr was still a whole load of food left. just imagine the amt of food cooked! haha.

on my way home at the bus stop aft exiting TPE ( i think ), i saw this little malay girl with her mom and brother. i sat on the same bench as her, and she shifted next to me and stared at me with her big, round eyes. she looked so sweet and innocent. she smiled at me and i smiled back. then she waved and said hi. awwww. and of cos, i did the same back at her. when she left, she waved and said bye to me. twice. and so did her brother. looking at her, i really miss my childhood days. and whatever innocence i had back then. LOL.

visitations tmr. nt exactly looking forward to it but, wtheck. might as well get it over and done with. i get the same comments every year until i can almost recite whatever whoever's gna say. yes, im kidding. my brain has null space for that much info. haha. another round of dinner again at another aunt's hse on tuesday. im eating so much this hols! i love (:

oh btw, the cny goodies made me more sick. my throat's terrible now and i was feeling HORRID this morning/aftnn/evening. but nth's gna stop me from having as much bakkwa as i want. plus pineapple tarts, love letters and prawn rolls! YAYNESS. i adore food. i eat to live :D

p/s. sad tango's mv is damn hot. bi can really dance!

i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.

20060125
23:09

earCANDY : the perishers - trouble sleeping

the point-blogging syndrome is back again. too lazy to type in prose. oh, which reminds me of a 1000-1500 word LIT essay i'll have to write soon. urgh.

- regulus4 birthday celebration for frederick, linlin and khairul yestd at tampines.
- had kfc for dinner and cut the chocolate gateau cake at the playgrd outside tm's food court.
- took loadsa crazy photos.
- had loadsa insane fun. tks for the cream on our faces, frederick!
- after all the frenziness, we went home, all tired.
- didn't attend odac training today.
- sick with slight fever + dry cough. i sound so masculine now.
- spent my whole night online. slacked so much today. oh darn.

haven't studied for the halogeno compounds quiz tmr. so screwed! argh. i hate this A Levels year. i wna get it over and done quickly!!!

regulusFOUR rocks me silly ((:

myself and my fellow reg4 OGLS (:

myself ; jieshi ; fatin ; kristin ; jieying

jieying and i !

HAPPY SEVENTEENTH, FREDERICK!! :D

i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.

20060120
12:12

earCANDY : ryan cabrera - photo.

When you told me that you loved me
Were those just words?
You cant tell me you dont need me
And i know that hurts
Cause im looking at your picture
Cause its all i've got
Maybe one day you and me will have
One more shot

this song rocks. kudos to alvinthendingyao for sending it to me (:

the stress of schoolwork is hitting me hard. im so afraid of A levels. im afraid of failing ; afraid of not doing well enough to get into university. so much said but you know what? im still happily slacking away while my peers are mugging their asses off! damn. i need some self-discipline badly.

this yr's schedule is bloody tight. tuition on mon and thurs leaves me with ZERO energy and time to complete my homework. odac trainings on wed and fri ALSO leaves me with null energy to do anything! so screwed, man. i think i nda do weekly revisions from now on. i must aim to pass everything during block tests. and im still contemplating on whether or not i should actually drop lit. arghhh. how unnerving. i seriously do not need any additional irrelevant stress points in my life now. esp my mother's pms-business. hurhur.

i've been running soooooo much these few days. i think i'm at the peak of my fitness level now. HAHAHA. according to joanne a.k.a the little one, by the end of odac + PE , we will be at our fittest we can ever be in our entire life. man, i so agree. right, joanne? LOL! i think my legs are even getting accustomed to the endless running, since they do not ache as badly as they should. haha.

uncle's chalet tmr. mother was quite bent on staying over but i was even MORE bent on going back home to my own comfy bed. besides, then i wouldn't have to wake up to the nuisance of noisy kids early in the morning. and i'd get to study for my @!#%@ math test. hahaha. gng cny shopping with mandy tmr. can't wait la. havent been out with that girl for soooooo long alrdy. altho we see each other every mon and thurs. LOL.

oh, i think our audition for soiree was a success since we were the only dance grp auditioning. the other 2 grps pulled out. like, wth. bet they saw us practice so hard and got scared out of their wits, so they withdrew. hahaha. "206, WHOOSH!"

sigh. i still haven't caught heirloom yet. i really really wna watch it v badly. havent had my dosage of horror films for a long time. i wna watch memoirs of a geisha too!

anyway, reg4 rocks me silly la. the jokes that shafiq and zul say are totally CORNY but still funny. plus the way fiona laughs, it's totally hilarious pls! they're just like a bunch of kiddos. damn cute. i like'em. hahaha. they brightened up my otherwise gloomy day. can't wait for a PROPER og outing soon. other OGs are alrdy having bbqs and movie outings or whatsoever. where's regulusFOUR's?!?! hahaha.

okay, im off to catch up with my loss of sleep this wk. gna wake up ultra late tmr. nda get my well-deserved rest.

p/s. dad's giving me more money for cny shopping! yayness. hahaha.

i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.

20060116
23:01

earCANDY: robbie williams - advertising space

i hate the way it ended.
now im feeling guilty for your state.
guess it's all my fault again.
when will i ever learn, really?
this is so exasperating.

today's not the best day of my life. but ms chee made me happier. so did the mavis-ians. they're sucha nonsensical bunch. gektheng, mandy and hedi, i love you guys very much! -go and die can? ((:

have to get up early for bio lecture tmr. what a spoiler. i really need my slp so badly! i'm considering on dropping lit in a hopeful exchange for a more revised and CONCISED timetable. haha. maybe after my block test results come out.

i really nda find an incentive to get my butt out of bed every wkday morning. school life is getting a lil too mundane for me. i feel like slping or eating most of the time! hurhur. seeing the j1s enjoying their PAE period, i got reminded of mine last yr. rmbed the times stoning in the canteen aft sch with joanne. thr were NO tutorials to do and NO tests to mug for. blissful life, i tell you. now, the j1s are alrdy mugging their asses off for god-knows-what! they're giving all the j2s unnecessary stress, man!

oh crap, im so tied down these few days that i hardly have time to go out for dinner with friends, or even complete my cny shopping. i still have a top to buy and maybe a bottom too, if i see anyth i fancy. no skirts this yr. swearing off'em. hahaha.

can't wait for the cny holidays to come. i've got soooooo much work and sleep to catch up on. i've even got a list of ppl to catch up with. i miss the mindless towning with mandy, the starbuck talks [ i still hate coffee, btw. ], silly camera fun with lil one and random conversations into the wee hrs of the morning.

guess im gna have to slp soon. i feel so cheated of my supposedly late assembly tmr! urghh!

goodnight people!

but it's time to face the truth ; i will never be with you .

i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.

20060113
22:09

the same shit happens every year. it's like an annual cycle i can't get rid of. i wonder why.

friday the 13th. no wonder it's called DOOM'S DAY. hadn't been an awesomely good day for me. to add to my misery, i still had to run a whopping 2.4km for ODAC training. urgh. hello, muscle ache!

actually today wasn't a really BAD day in all. SOME good things happened. enjoyed recess with reg4 today. a pity i couldn't join them at tm after school. tks to ODAC, once again. hahaha. heard of what they did at tm. pretty lame stuff but sounded really fun and to some extent, interesting! LOL. looking forward to the next OG outing. i need to DESTRESS, pls!

soiree is sooooo exciting!!! (((((:

i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.

20060110
00:55

i wish negative things never happened.

i wish more things could go my way [ yes. im a brat. ].

i wish year 2006 would be more fruitful and productive.

i wish the big A's were over. and i'd done REALLY well.

i wish i was a little girl once more. then i won't have to deal with the complications of teenhood or adulthood.

i wish all my wishes would come true.

i wish i could just shut up.

ANYWAY, i really wanna go back to my childhood days. those days, though nt exactly memorable, at least were days where i didn't hide anything, and life was plain and simple. i like.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY LIONEL LIM JUNYAN! can officially go clubbing already. and get dirty danced with everytime you hit the dance floor. hahaha.

i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.

20060108
23:19

i can't believe today's weather is undeniably sleeping-friendly. according to mandy, it started raining at 4am, and according to ME, it only stopped raining somewhat around 9plus, 10. that's a total of about 18hours of continued rain! what an amazing feat! WOW. hahaha.

i love the rain. really. but it brings bouts of depression everytime i see the heavy downpour. along with lightning and thunder as added sound effects. somehow it just makes me feel as though God's crying along with me and many others who are feeling not too happy at times. but whenever im happy, i see the rain as a sign that God's crying for JOY along with us, feeling sincerely happy for us (:

today, the rain made me REALLY REALLY frozen. even my jacket couldn't keep me warm. and i stupidly chose to wear that denim skirt of mine today to ps. man, what was i thinking? tsk. i was literally freezing my ass off every moment outside home. even when i took my shower, the water REFUSED to warm up. i bathed with the tap shifted from the cold end to the EXTREME hot end, and i was still feeling cold. hmmm.

can't wait to get back to class again. then again, S206 will be different with the 5 other ppl ard, and with zkai missing from our class. at least i still have my S and E! S&E are nth without H! LOL. i hope the whole class will get along well. this cant go on for ONE YR, and our last yr in junior college, at that. i want fond memories, not bitter ones.

chem make-up lesson @ 0730 tmr. gta drag my lazy self outta bed. darn. hahaha. i hope i can get back to studying mode soon. this yr is the most impt yr of my whole life. just the thought of it depresses and scares me! tsk.

okay. off to watch my vampire show now. last eps tonight. how terribly depressing. told you the rain brings bouts of random depressing feelings. LOL. okay. im just rambling crap now. goodnight everybody!

may god bless me tmr. heh.

i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.

20060107
13:14

mjc orientation 2006 is sadly, over.
SUPERNATURAL - where limits don't exist.

i LOVE regulus 4. they rock me silly. totally. 17 people. 10 guys ; 7 girls.
the girls were SOOOOOOO enthusiastic. i like! haha. the guys were MOSTLY enthusiastic except for like 1 of them? hahaha. the two jokers were insane - frederick and terrence. they were bloody BIG JOKES themselves man. LOL. but they were hilariously funny. i will NEVER forget the stupid lame jokes frederick entertained us with during MMM @ Sentosa. he's like a walking collection of jokes. hahaha. terrence is just.. stupidly funny. LOL. he can laugh at shinkay's "half an hour" stint for the whole day laaa. damn funny. esp during our lunch @ west plaza yestd. super funny. and that fiona.. omg. she's totally so easily amused. during campfire discussion, she kept laughing and laughing till she teared. we couldn't make out if she was laughing or crying cos she looked like she was in pain. LOL! terrence also. funny people.

spking of campfire. WE ROCKED MAN. zul and shafiq! WHOA. "everyone in reg4, let's say it tgt!"
"KONG BAAAAAAABII!!!" -points to zul.
whahahahahaha! damn funny. super hilarious. kong baaabi as become our trademark. LOL.

altho reggie got last, again, we all had the GREATEST fun! still rmb the VS guys singing "We are the champions" when we were announced the 5th place. LOL! damn hilarious. and they had to sing their VS anthem in our sch. every yr, i tell you. hahahaha.

im now left with half my original voice, but i think it is all WORTH IT ((:

bam bam choo choo train,
let me see you do that thing!
quack! reggie is the best!
quack! reggie beats the rest!
na na na na na na
na na na na na na
SWAT!

regulus four rocks me silly silly silly! ((:

so does all the reggie OGLs! lol. the "smuacks" gang - !fiz !melia !lanie !lda. tsktsk.

i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.