this topsy-turvy world ;

20051228
20:19

i'm sorry that im just another letdown. i know you had really high hopes for me but i had disappoint you like the others.

i'm really sorry for the words i'd said. i don't want you to waste your time yet again. it won't be fair to you.

i'm afraid you'll never want to talk to me again. as it is now.

i really don't know what to say anymore. and i know you won't want to hear or see me anyway.

PLEASE PLEASE get back to me when you're feeling better. you're one awesome friend i never want to lose.

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE do not do anything that will bring more harm to yourself in the meantime. PLEASE! i'm really being concerned here.

i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.

20051222
11:49

BoA's songs have the infinite power to make me happy. i don't know why. but the effect's wearing off. im nt feeling so high as before these days. hahaa.

i was looking through the pictures in my comp this morning and many of them made me smile. sure thr were some whr i went, "WOW! i actually took a photo with that person?" and "omg. that awful hair!" hahahah. but seeing the happy faces in photographs really brings a smile across your face.

i really miss those times in primary sch where everyth was so simple and everyone wasn't so backstabbish and full of hatred. okay, sure thr were some annoying creatures, but we just dint bother abt them. LOL. primary sch was so filled with loadsa girly fun and a fair share of gossiping. haha. girls' school what! LOL.

then thr was secondary sch. went in thr not knowing anybody. and left that place with much regrets that i didn't really cherish my time in there. but nevertheless, i met my wonderful clique, da^noisomez!!! haahahaha. same class for FOUR whole yrs. my goodness. some coincidence man! really miss you guys ALOT. cant wait for our post-xmas gathering! you people really brightened up the boring and routined secondary sch life.

still remembered the fun we had in home ec and D&T lessons! izzy taking a wooden spoon to "hit" mdm kwa's head. LOL. talking rot with mr sen. then thr was mrs poon's useless english lessons. and miss wong's wonderful math lessons. the air-con we enjoyed during our lower sec yrs! bliss, i tell you! LOL. i even miss stupid capt's ball games during PE lessons. haha.

sec 3 and 4 was GREAT FUN what with faith32 and faith42. love the class. really cool bunch of people. miss the time mark injured his leg and we shifted to first flr, next to canteen. and hw izzy and i would sing "vindicated" during aft sch lessons whilst the pple were having teachers' day rehearsals. LOL. i miss my chiobu too. haha. then thr was laughing at moon when justin walked past. OH. and the scribbling of lyrics on my table! izzy, still rmb 'JD'? so hilarious! damn. i even miss running away from joanne wong. stupid discipline mistress. damn funny. just a "jwong, jwong!!", and it'll send all of us running to the toilet. LOL. oh. i miss the smelly toilets too. how we would spend almost 1/4 of our recesses in thr! LOL.

then thr was lousy band pracs and endless rehearsals. and stupid sectionals. and ridiculous office politics. but all these still brings back wonderful memories. miss my seniors and juniors. missed the rehearsals back at victorial concert hall and kallang theatre. the sms-ing during practices. the "cant-wait-to-get-out-of-here" feeling. but i dont miss the drills, though. LOL.

i LOVE my secondary school days most. jc life is pretty much mundane. sure, thr were some friendships forged, but it's still different from sec sch. but i love my jc friends too. i love 05S206! i loved the first orientatn! SOME regulus 3 people. and CERTAIN ODACians. haha. i'll miss the seniors (: all in all, i think i'll still miss mj when i graduate no matter how much i abhor it now. more or less. so i should start cherishing my time in there next yr. cant believe im getting out of uniformity soon. i'll miss wearing uniforms and attending morning assemblies! hahaha.

okay. sch's starting soon. none of my hmwk's completed. im so screwed. i think im gna die. i hope next yr's class will still be as fun.

meeting mandy to pass her xmas present ltr. i wonder what she got me. hmmmmm. hahahaha. im sure she'll love MY present for her (:

that reminds me, I HAVEN'T DONE MY XMAS CARDS! shoots. hahaha.

i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.

20051220
23:19

earCANDY: BoA - Girls on Top

thanks mandy for this: [ haha! ]

Rules of Game
1. Post 5 random things about yourself
2. At the end of the quiz, list the names of 5 people who you want next to do this and leave a comment, "you are tagged" in their blog and tell them to read your blog for the rules.

5 weird/random stuffs about me:
1. i hate pepsi, coke, 7-up, sprite, 100-plus and most soft drinks.
2. my nose bleeds when i dont get enough sleep or when i dont hydrate myself sufficiently.
3. i live to eat. i DON'T eat to live (:
4. i miss secondary sch life. i miss the sch, the people, the food..... ahhhh.
5. BoA* rocks my world. she's uber hot and talented!!! :D

im not gna tag anybody. LOL.

anyways, chinablack was fun yestd. saw lionel and janice. naughty girl!! only fifteen and alrdy clubbing!!! tsktsk.

3rd consecutive day in town tmr. im soooooooooooo sick of town alrdy. really. i can't wait to shop overseas!!! somebody pls sponsor me a trip to america, australia, europe, japan and hongkong. an ALL EXPENSES PAID trip! hahahaha.

can't wait to cut my hair. im quite bored of my current hairstyle alrdy. and my hair's growing at an ultra low rate. so annoying! urghh.

i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.

20051216
12:18

earCANDY : BoA - Girls On Top

i sooooooo totally agree with sophie that watching BoA perform can really make you wish she was your girlfriend. nobody can get as close to her in terms of talent and hotness! heh.

SO HOT!

oh. i also saw jang dong gun at the airport on wednesday. not very hot. nth compared to my BoA. LOL. i hope thr aren't any JDG's fans ard. whahahhaa.

I CANT WAIT FOR XMAS AND ORIENTATION !!! :D :D :D :D :D

i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.

20051207
00:29

Craig David - Don't Love You No More (I'm Sorry)

For all the years that I’ve known you baby
I can’t figure out the reason why lately
you’ve been acting so cold (didn’t you say)
if there’s a problem we should work it out
so why you giving me the cold shoulder now
like you don’t want to talk to me girl (tell me)
okay I know I was late again
I made you mad and dinners thrown in (the bin)
but why you making this thing drag on so long (I wanna know)
I’m sick and tired of this silly game
don’t think that I’m the only one here to blame
it’s not me who’s been going round slamming doors

That’s when you turned and said to me
I don’t care babe who’s right or wrong
I just don’t love you no more

Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more

I know that I’ve made a few mistakes
but never thought things would turn out this way
doesn’t make sense to me now that you’re gone (I see it all so clearly)
me at the door with you in a state
giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face

That’s when you turned and said to me
I don’t care babe who’s right or wrong
I just don’t love you no more

Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more

Those simple words hit so hard
they turned my whole world upside down
girl you caught me completely off guard
on that night you said to me
I just don’t love you no more

Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more

shopping with mandyyyy was sooooooooooo much fun today. both of us were in hysterics throughout our shopping trip. the incident with Create Talents' Jamie woman. superly spastic. hahahahha!!! pure choc at coffee bean @ holland v was good too. plus the beef jerky strips. yummmmmmm. had gelare icecream waffle today too!! (:

i think my valentine is very suaku, but dont worry, i'll turn her soon into a very street and food-wise fella. crystal jade, nydc, pepper lunch, ben&jerry's, yakun, popeye's etc, i'm gna have to accompany this girl to try out the food at these places. hahahaha. thr goes my pay. oh wells. hopefully it's for a gd cause. i expect a HUGE xmas present + NEW card + loads more care & concern! haahahah.

okay. im off to catch my beauty slp now. meeting up with stupid big-time bully tan choon kai tmr. he's gna bully me like nobody's business as always. stupid guy. but im not gna let him! haha. i think im also gna die laughing tmr. ahahhaa. wtheck. im off to bed! -zooms.

p/s. tanglin mall has some really fancy FAKE SNOW. mandy was so excited over it! whahahahah.

p/p/s. im sry i left out YANQI whilst mentioning abt my colleagues yestd. haha. cant believe she's also from mj. and so is yvonne. what a coincidence.

i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.

20051205
23:07

work at John Little Mega Expo Sale ended yestd. the day was filled with mixed feelings. was happy that i didn't have to drag myself outta bed at 6.15am anymore, but yet, i was pretty upset that i wasn't gna see those pple again. really enjoyed wking there. the supervisors were [ mostly ] nice people, and my colleagues were AWESOME. hahaha. met loadsa people too. look at this list of people:

fellow packers - my "kakis": angeline, elsie, yvonne & charmaine.
- christine & joscelin
cashiers - youmin, pauline [ SC ], uncle ghani [ SC ], that
malay auntie from JP & this guy called clifton, i think.
last but not least,
my wonderful supervisors - mariam and rus.

i really enjoyed working there although it involves an endless 4 hours of cashiering w/o sitting down and with a neverending crowd of customers. some customers were pretty friendly and offered to help me pack their stuffs since some [ or MOST ] of the time i had NO PACKERS to help. was quite helpless. hahaha. i think these few days i'd be blessed since i've said countless thank yous and smiled SOOOOOOO much to strangers. hahahaha.

altho the lunch brks were pretty erratic, and we had to exit and enter by the staff entrance, which is VERY VERY far from the food outlets, and we had to walk some distance from the mrt stn to the staff entrance, i don't really have any complaints abt it. haha. oh, i also enjoyed clearing and sorting out the merchandise early in the morning before the hall's open, shopping while clearing. haha. AND the silly announcements they make in the morning. the counting down to the opening of the hall. hahahha. damn funny. man. I REALLY MISS WORKING AT THE EXPO SALE NOW !! ): i think i might go back again next yr man. LOL.

anyway, i finally managed to get my 9 hours' worth of slp yestd night. havent been slping for more than 6 hours the past 4 nights. nt that i'm complaining. hahaha. got up to watch my cartoons today too! (:

oh, and i finally shopped @ the JL sale today. finally a CUSTOMER. hahaha.

doing MORE shopping tmr with my BEST EVER shopping partner, my dear VALENTINE. hahahhaa. mandy ahhh. so sry i didn't sign up for tuition in the end. maybe i'll sign up in the 3rd week, okay? hahaha. let's look forward to shopping our hols away!!!

gna go catch MORE sleep now. seeya'll sooooonnnnnn.

p/s. how come josephine is MJ's prom queen this year?!?! hmmm. i wonder why! hahahahaha.

i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.