20051028
23:30
Currently addicted to this song:
This One's For You
by Ed Harcourt
I feel so far away from love
'Cus I can never get enough
Like the kid with the cookie jar
And if I came back from the grave for a while
Would you, could you make a dead man smile
I´ll wear you on my arm like a brand new scar
My oh my oh my I've had a few
My oh my oh my this one's for you
My heart is on it's sleeve
I need you to believe that the dark times will fade
So crack the shell of the hardest heart
Slip inside when they're caught off guard
Kill all the urgent lies that stain their blood
And if you think that you know everything
Don't give me this chance to sing
I'm not a fool, a fool to lighten up
My oh my oh my I've had a few
My oh my oh my this one's for you
My heart is on it's sleeve
I need you to believe that the dark times will fade
And I can't stop staring at you
And your expression looks a little confused
This little story will end so well.
tmr's the last lesson for ms chee's tuition. gna miss her for a mth. hahaha.
chinese A's on monday. so screwed, so screwed. might as well just sit for the paper at the beginning of this yr man. makes no difference.
got results slip today. quite pleased with it. passed everything. D E A D. no pun intended. hahaha. i guess our class will be broken up and i'll have to start socializing all over again. i hope we will stay as a class and continue to have mrs choong as our CT! i'll miss her if she goes. sophie and i had a gossip session with her today after getting our result slips. man, she is one gossip-er! hahaha.
finally went for odac today but i pretty much might as well nt have went since i didn't attend PT. just ran three rounds on my own. cool weather, great drizzle. haven't ran for mths! getting weaker alrdy. there goes my 2.4km run nxt yr. man, i still rmb the canoeing trials! -shudders. hahaha.
gna get a job asap. strapped for cash! any big deals, people? guess i'm gna have to stick to fnb. and im sure im gna complain to the people ard me when i get a job. whahaha! get ready your ear-muffs, friends!
p/s. happy birthday to DARYL and MELVYN! (:
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
20051022
15:28
i am so sick or PW. i think im gna die due to excessive PW. i need the doctor to prescribe me with some pro-PW pills so i'd look forward to doing my PW work. it's amazing how PW can really turn your life topsy-turvy.
no amount of shopping would cheer me up. this is a very severe case of depression here.
mj's computer is soooooo lousy. it deleted my one morning's worth of hardwork. dumb recovery application thing does not work. stupid computer! made me retype my proposal which is 5 pages and 1000++ words long. sucha waste of my time. dumb PW. dumbass who keeps delaying our work. as i told joanne, i wna kick his ass all the way to IRAQ! so what if he holds some bloody BIG office position? i don't care! you are supposed to show some sense of responsibility you @#%$!@#
sorry, i am just SOOOOOOO pissed. ever since yesterday after the PW review with yasmin. my goodness. she said our work was crap. like, okay. thanks so much. 7 pages of my proposal is CRAP huh. very good. wasted hours spent on it then. i'm not being nasty or anything. i just wished at least i had SOME credit to it. like, im sure not EVERYTHING was horrendous.
there's still OP to do. im so screwed. WE are so screwed. i hope rubbish does not come out of that mouth of mine when i present. can't wait for PW to officially end. Actually, i just can't wait for my chinese paper to be over. then i can at least relax a little then get a job and once i'm done with PW, i'm off to celebrate my liberation before the next one year of hell begins.
im actually quite disappointed with myself sometimes. i don't know why. i have VERY VERY bad self-discipline and i cant stand that nasty temper of mine. im short-fused. yes. but really, i think i don't blow my top THAT often. RIGHT? ha ha. i felt so bad after screaming like an inane woman in the library just now. all thanks to that computer. and that pain-in-the-ass.
i don't know if i'm looking forward to the bbq later at sophie's hse. part of me wants to go but the other part of me doesn't want to. i'd rather be at some place just dining with one or two friends. parties and gatherings are bound to leave some people being casted aside. and i know i'd be the one tonight since im feeling a little... low and i'd probably keep very silent throughout the night. but i hope not. by the way, i really need loadsa comfort food now. i crave for sushi, mudpie, banana split ice cream, black pepper crab and.... PIZZA! omg. im starving so bad. havent had lunch. doubt im having it anyway.
the only thing worth mentioning yestd was that i jumped the ODAC thing TWICE and i hit the bell. quite proud of myself. it's quite addictive actually. wanted to jump again but there wasn't much time. joanne couldn't hit the bell even though she tried THRICE. whahaha. it's okay little one, i know you're LITTLE. tsk.
I was so tired last night that i didn't have the appetite to eat anything although i was famished. partly bcos i was pissed too, i guess. my mother forced me to have some rice and the seafood soup that i bought for her. then i TRIED to do my WR but i was dozing off halfway so i decided to slp. quite pissed i had to wake up early today. thought i could slp in late. needed to catch up on my slp very much.
anyway, gotta run for tuition now. hope ms chee and my friends can cheer me up later. im NOT looking forward to the journey from kovan to changi! it's gna be long and boring. and i have to travel back from changi. urgh.
p.s. dad's coming back from bangkok today! i don't have to buy dinner and the newspaper anymore! yay! :D
p.s.s. i want an iPod nano! whahaha.
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
