20050730
12:19
addictiveEARcandy: LeAnne Rimes - The right kind of wrong
hello people. it has been a long time. im here just to update a few bits on my ( very boring ) life.
05S206 won the debate against 05S402. HOORAY!!! we're in the quarter finals.
had class photo-taking on friday. an awesome experience of posing for 15minutes. bet the photographer was fed up. haha. the photos turned out wonderful!
uhhm. the oc rocked on thursday. last time to see marissa and alex together. the last scene was soooo touching i think i teared. they looked good together. sucha pity.
odac yestd was pretty lame. we went cycling at pasir ris park. think we cycled from one end to the other, TWICE. at least.
im so broke this mth. i wna get my CBGB shirt from queen's couture! oh, and my shopping spree @ FOS is g-o-n-e!
ahhh. cant wait for bio test to be over. photosynthesis, respiration, ecology and biostatistics! im so screwed! i HATE energetics. and biostats is STUPID. damn tedious. a waste of time.
my hse is now infested with mosquitoes which sucks a hell lot of blood from me. all thanks to the rainy weather.
but, i still love rainy nights (:
oh, we had a v quick celebration for ruoyu on his bdae, last tues. the cake was yummilicious!
i loved it. sophia and i were finishing up the cake like pigs. so unglam. haha.
05S206 rocks !
missing people : justin and sujata.
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
20050718
23:45
addictiveEARcandy : Portishead - Roads
i can't believe myself at times. i think i'm actually stronger than i thought i was. i've learnt to be truthful as the repercussions for not doing so will be too much for me to bear. okay, im sounding like some drama queen here, but it's true. i'm apologetic for my words today. i should've saved those for another day. oh well, can't cry over spilt milk.
i had quite some time to brood over my current life this afternoon when the windows were being installed. it's a wonder how the different genres of music can actually make you feel better. or worse. anyway, i've realized there really isn't anybody i could, at that moment, phone and be a 101% sure he/she will lend me a listening ear, and offer some urgently-needed sound advice. in short, i realized i'm left to straighten everything out by myself. yes, i know i'm very pathetic. thankyou. seriously, although i have a good company of friends, when in times of need, there is nobody i could really turn to. well, i guess that's okay because at the end of the day, whatever problems will be resolved. right? sigh. it is quite sad thinking about it, but then again, i cannot recall anytime i've really confided in someone. not once. hmm. but i survived close to 17 years now.
i think fatigue has gotten into me. i'm feeling more and more lethargic as the day passes. by the end of the school week, i'm completely drained. my EOM is still uncompleted. i think jeevan's gonna kill me. my math and ecology tutorials are also undone. it's funny how i can still so calmly perch myself infront of the computer and take no action but only procrastinate and whine about it. the irony of life.
i'm really feeling so disturbed now. i can't seem to get anything done well and i haven't really been spending my time very productively. i ought to be struggling with my promos revision soon. i feel like screaming my lungs out at the peak of mt faber, find a good spot, enjoy the fabulous view and feel the wind through my hair. it's sucha beautiful place. really.
on sucha chilly night like this, it totally fits how i'm feeling right now. i shall hide under the duvet and hug myself to sleep. a better day awaits tomorrow. i hope.
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
20050708
00:27
i felt like punching my fists against the wall when OC ended 10mins earlier at 11.55pm! i was screaming and procrastinating like nobody's business. checked the transcript online and i realised they deleted FOUR hell important scenes. out of 3 were featuring marissa and alex. dammit. what IS wrong with the local censorship board? the totally changed the whole idea of the second season! today's eps had so little of marissa [ not that i bother ] and alex didn't even have her face showed! damn was i pissed! i was so looking forward to getting my weekly dose of OC with marissa and alex, and the stupid media people had to cut the most interesting scenes.
tell me, WHAT'S WRONG WITH THEM? there seriously is no point in watching the following episodes. looks like the show's gna end 1/2 and hour earlier next week. what the heck. screw it. i'm so so so pissed and i feel so cheated! i bet they edit the DVDs too. oh CRAP.
just when i was feeling lousy today, this had to happen.
damn.
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
20050705
23:51
my results are so gna SUCK. failed gp. tell me how much worse can this get? i told my mother i was gna quit sch. i think she almost believed me. well, i almost persuaded myself to doing so. if i get back chem tmr, i think i can cry. im just hoping for an AO pass. just NO Fs! but i'll be fine with EOOF, as i'd said. oh, god bless me.
anyway, i think ms chee's lessons have a therapeutic effect on my nervous system. somehow after her lesson, i cheered up a little. haha. the wonders of ms chee. well, maybe it wasnt totally her, maybe i just got over it aft some time. oh wells.
btw, my new lit teacher [ who has a funny name ], Mr. Low Gek Piao, is pretty nice and corny. haha. think his lessons are gna be fun. well, i hope so, and it'd better be! tsk.
im still pretty depressed and upset with myself. i really REALLY thought of quitting sch and just go overseas straight. sighh. everyth's so screwed up. and my allowance has dried up. like it vanished into thin air or smth. 10bucks for class fund, another 10bucks for odac fund, 40bucks for 4 Arts' Night's tickets. omg, im sooooooo broke. can somebody pls sponsor my recesses and lunchbrks? your noble deed will be much appreciated. thank you (:
okay, i've gotta jump into bed now before i start dozing off infront of the comp and typing gibberishly. i hope tmr's gna be a much better day. and i hope odac's PT wont be so tough. i think i'll die if it was to be. ahhhhhh. somebody save me!
goodnight.
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
20050704
23:37
okay. guess it has been a rreeeaallllyyyyy long time since i'd last blogged. been busy during the june hols. mt ophir trip was sooooo fun. esp the long bus rides and the late nights in the tents. hahaha. the teachers and their husbands were also sporting. 'twas a really enjoyable trip. and enriching. totally. aft the trip, i had a one week self-declared brk and then i started mugging my ass off for the terms. kovan BK was, once again, my second home for the last two weeks of the one month break. bet the "floor manager" hates us already. hahaha.
spking abt my terms, let's just say i'd mugged for nth. my results would probably be equivalent to what i'd get if i hadn't studied during the last two wks. the papers were CRAP! i had no time to finish my chem section c and i was stuck on qsn 9 of the mcq when i was only left with 15mins to complete the rest! i had 30qsns altogether, mind you! oh, and i studied for paper 4 when i was supposed to take paper 1 during the lit exam on tuesday. tell me im oh-so-screwed. thankyou. damn, wish i was a little brighter than what i am already. i'll be satisfied with my results as long as i get my EOOF. EEEE is soooooooo beyond my reach. probably smth i can only achieve next yr. harhar. screw the jc educatn system. im determined to get my ass out of this place asap! ie. going elsewhr to get my degree.
guess what? lessons resume tmr. i hope there'll be some post-exam activities. really nda destress myself. altho my timetable is slightly better now with only two days ending at 5, 2 days ending at 4.15 and, one day at 2pm. oh, and my pe is on wed and fri. odac days! omg. tell me im so dead! okay, guess i'm exaggerating a lil here, but i cant help worrying abt the intensive PT we're gna have to go through till the end of this yr. i hope we'll get to bring the sec sch kids up to ophir, and climb mt kinabalu with our seniors :D oooh. i cant wait for this yr to come to an end!
but for now, it's back to reality, back to lectures and boring tutorials. as usual, i'll be taking EXTRA notice of my recess and lunch breaks everyday. the only time i look forward to in school. oh, and pe too. haha. okay, gotta run. my bag's unpacked and i cant find my NEW timetable. i need some serious organization here. my notes and files are everywhere! till the next time i blog [ soon, i hope.] , see ya'll and all the best for the results. i hope we all get STRAIGHT A's!!! woohooo. you wish! hahaha.
ps. alex n marissa frm the oc rock hard!
pps. i cant wait for arts night!! (:
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
