this topsy-turvy world ;

20041228
23:13

i had a really bad christmas this yr. i bet it'll be the worst xmas ever. boohoo. i nvr got to eat enough food at my gran's on xmas dayy 'cos mostly were fried and i had a sore throat. poor me, i know. it's the worst to fall ill during xmas and cny period. urghh.

oh, and i fainted on the eve of xmas eve whilst gng back to my room frm the bathroom. how nice, NOT. i was left with unseen bruises on my nose, hips and bum. i actually knocked onto the wall. ouch! thk god i dint really knock out for long. had a high fever tht night accompanied with chills and major headache plus sore throat. killer combination, i tell you. boohoo. my parents were dang worried, esp mommy dearest. haha. i wasnt able to slp that night till the nxt morning. 'twas the worst night EVER! i nvr felt so lethargic and dizzy before. scary. i also thk god i dint spend my xmas at a hosp. tht wud've been terrible. haha.

im still left with a lil cough nw. no phlegm but throat's still a lil sore and itchy at times. sighh.

anyways, i'll be cutting my hair tmr. like finally. yayness! gna get my hands on the bag i'd wanted tooo! yay. it's so gd when it's end of yr and daddy gets his bonus, cos i get extra cash! heh heh. im gna SPLURGE! i nd new wallet, bag, hair ties, socks, clothes n prolly a new attitude. haha. i knw i've said it ample times but i'm serious, im gna be a NICER person. no airs, no arrogance, no insincerities and no bitching! heh. however, gossiping is soo EXcluded. hahaa.

i've also finally collected my GPA and eagles awards. yayness. extra 300 bucks. lol.

had band rod today. finally. thot they were nvr gna hold it. man, it wasnt exactly a blast but 'twas really nice cos i got ta see my juniors and their perfs. i also received gifts. so touched ((:
the buffet wasnt really ideal but, oh well, what's new. hahaha.

i also went mj with mandy to submit her appeal form tgt with some other docs. the pple said they'll call before 5pm today but she received no calls. gd news, i guess, cos her mum called n the peeps said if appeal was successful, they wont call but a letter will be posted. so, i should be happy for her. for now. haha. im sure she'll be successful. i'll pray for youu!! ((:

oh, on the way in, this mj gurl actually asked us "are you guys coming for the first 3mths?" and mandy replied, " she is, im here to appeal." Then tht gurl said, " why do u wna come?" at this pt, we were shockedd. hahaa. i mean, she was supposed ta promote her sch, wasnt she? lol. oh wells, but she said, "u'll enjoy ur first 3 mths here. really." And left with a smile. haha. pretty sweet. it's comforting to knw thr are nice pple over thr. she's prolly one of the OGLs. hmmm. oh, i've also chked my OG - regulus 3. amos and the others are in diff grps. sighh. im all alone. boohoo. thn agn, it's no big deal. i'll make new friends. i hope. hahaha.

okayy, i shall end my post here. pretty much longer than it shud've been. but anws, a belated x'mas to everyone and all the best for the coming new year!! ((:

sayo.

p.s. inuyasha rawks my clean socks :D

i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.

20041223
22:17

23rd Dec 2004

went swimming tdy morning. sun was hiding out the whole time. boo. swam max 5laps at a go. total swam abt 12 laps. i seriously nda exercise more. jogging's next ((:

swissotel training last tues sucked. the trainer was lousy like anyth. spoke and looked like lim soon wai. eeks. haha. thk god i dint fall aslp. thr were approximately 50 pple at the session. wk starts nxt wk i guess. gta buy my cort shoes and black skirt soon. what a time to start wk. bahh. at least they pay reasonably. guess im gna quit aft june hols. heh.

was in town with mandy yestd. frm lunch to dinner. had a joyous time. crapped our time away and we ate like little piggies. haha. from a pizza at pastamania, to watermelons, desserts at scotts fdcourt and back thr for beef noodles. yummm. and i finally stepped into borders aft sucha long time. tht place was packed. last min xmas shopping, i guess.

met leen at 8.30pm, orchard mrt. then mandy went hme. waited for izzy ta show up thn we walked over to tangs ta catch the perf. they were thr ta sppt the ashmore band which were friends of their friend. yeahh. hahaha. i was thr cos leen asked me ta go. hw nice, i knw. heh. perf was 9-10pm. thn we walked over ta coffee bean at wheelock n leen bought her mocha ice blended. we planned ta walk to ps but gave up and walked to somerset instead. hahaha. by the time i reached hme, it was 11.40pm. missed 10mins of inuyasha. sighh. but at least i caught the exciting part ((:

a pity i cudnt accompany jacq ta MNG sale tdy. SORRY, DARL!!! i really wanted ta go but im strapped of cash. very much. sigh.

anyways, im down with a sore throat and a throbbing headache now. i feel terrible. ouch. my head's also pretty hot. prolly cos of the sun. uhh.. yeah. lol.

i've gta report to sch at 7.15am on 3rd jan! like, omg! deprive me of my slp. hafta wake up at like 6am agn. urghhh. still gta bring $29.50 to schh! sighh. im nt looking forward to the days aft the orientation wk which fortunately is 5days!!! yayness ((:

i hope somebody's appeal to mj will be successful. heh. -wink, wink-

im gna spend my last wk of hols debating on which cca to join and uhh.. working out how im survive jc. haha.

oh, lastly, a big THANK YOUU to all the xmas card senders. i've received 11 cards so far ((:

im feeling xmas and yr 2005!! im looking forward to nxt tues whr i'll get my moneyy. lyk finally!! hahaha.

cheerios.

i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.

20041217
21:17

i shall try ta blog the actual way now.

okayy im currently facing a pretty critical financial crisis now. very much broke and have no money to spare. sry to all the peeps who asked me out for a movie or what not. damn the swissotel. they said they'll call us by the end of the mth! like huhllo? we'll alrdy be starting sch. sheesh. these pple are lying through their teeth. haha.

oh yes, im really satisfied with my posting results. i mean, im extremely elated when i saw it. like, i dint really expect it. so, i'll be spending my 2mths thr. hopefully it'll be a really nice sch with friendly pple ((:

im done with sending half of my xmas cards for now. the other half i'll try ta send them by this wk. i promise. haha. alvin's card is first this yr cos he hadta post it before he was off to NZ. lucky dude. im utterly jealous. -pouts-

surprisingly for a friday night, nobody's online. im like rotting my ass off infrnt of the comp with xmas songs playing. yes, im gettin the xmas mood like finally. christmas is my fave holiday of the whole yr. i lurve it more than cny. but i still lurve cny cos i get rich by just visiting and i get new clothes! -swoons- haha.

im thinking with all the time i have, i shud start my 2005 resolution list. i wonder hw many im gna kp. heh. the most impt one wud definitely be going back to church and anger suppression. hah. im gna be a really nice gurl frm nxt yr onwards. im gna smile more and raise my voice less. friends out thr, if u hear me raising my voice or getting agitated, remind me of the resolution i made, okay? lols.

BUT nth's official yet. i've nt gotten my resolution list out in black and white. prolly it'll be more colourful than tht. hah.

oh, and i've just updated my friendster profile like aft sucha long while. but it's basically the same thing. heh.

here comes my lyrics fever ((:

Runaway Train
by Soul Asylum

Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a blow torch burnin
I was a key that could use a little turnin

So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
Promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep

It seems no one can help me now
I'm in too deep
There's no way out
This time I have really led myself astray

chorus
Runaway train never goin back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here nor there

Can you help me remember how to smile
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded
Life's mystery seems so faded

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

And Everything seems cut and dry
Day and night, earth and sky
Somehow I just don't believe it

CHORUS

Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughin' at the rain
Little outta touch, little insane
Just easier than dealin with the pain

CHORUS

Runaway train never comin' back
Runaway train tearin' up the track
Runaway train burnin' in my veins
I runaway but it always seems the same

i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.

20041213
21:46

it has been awfully long since the last update. was too lazy ta blog. heh. anyways, here's what's up in my current life:

- first and foremost, a big thank you to nick for doing up this simple blogskin fer me!
- thanks a bunch ((:
- okayy, so nw im jobless cos i rejected breeks! [ they had a 6mth contract! ]
-am so irritated with tony roma's cos they broke their promise. liar, liar, pants on fire! ):
- now waiting for swissotel's call ta tell me when's their training. i hope they call. they'd BETTER anyway. heh.
- i dint noe westin stamford actually IS swissotel. i knw im dumb.
- i still wna get a lil more tanned. im not tan enough yet. haha.
- shall go swimming agn soon. im gna swim my fill during this hols ((:
- oh yes, im soooo totally addicted to inuyasha ever since two wks ago? heh.
- am nw anticipating for wed ta come cos then i can watch my show!! heh.
- apprehensive abt the placement results. wondering whr i'll end up. probably sr. i hope i'll get mj. im really praying fer it.
- oh yes, im so totally broke now and it's the xmas season. bummer.
- i've also loadsa xmas cards unwritten and unsent. omg omg im sooo dead. hah.
- i nda get like another 10 cards cos i have a whole list of pple to write to and i havent got their addresses. omg omg agn. lol.
- im sooo in lurve with the theme songs for inuyasha tht i kp repeating them for hours whenevr the comp is on. heh. call me mad. i dont care!
- i still havent caught a movie for ages. the last one was like mean girls? man, i feel lyk im living in a well. sighh.
- oh and another thing, i've also learnt that masashi of pug jelly is dating daphne khoo! ooooh. lol.
- i adore daph. i think she rawks. heh.
- i also adore pug jelly. im sooo sppt sg bands ie. pug jelly and electrico ((:
- going moon's hse tmr for her 'potluck partaye'. will be watching shark's tale and munching on junk food. major pigfest. hah.
- i think i need more bottoms. im so running out of jeans, skirts and whatsoever.
- lemme bring myself outta the critical financial crisis im facing first.
- i hope i'll get tht freaking job! rahhhh.
- god bless me. amen.

okayys, tht's abt all tht i hafta write. off ta do my things now. miss me pple! heh.

p.s. i thought of removing the tagboard and u guys can leave a note at my haloscan thing instead? how's tht?

nights ((:

i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.

20041205
00:15

2 interviews tmr. bahhh. i hope i get the swensen's one. i also hope i'll get ta work with my sugarcoatedhoneylicious bestie. heh.

whatevrr it is, i hope the job wont be too harsh. lol. i hate studying the menu. and i wont wna do that. hahaha.

dl-ed some grt songs todayy. heh. dl my fill before they officially ban it. dang.

went compass pt today. returned my bks. borrowed 2 more bks.

im so into supernatural and paranormal crapp nowadays. weirdd ol' me's back agn. hah. i wonder if witches were real. i wud lurve ta meet one. not upclose, though. i dont wna die. nt yet. lol.

i realise i've got fate with the wrong pple. sighh. this is so devastating. majorly devastating.

oh yeah, caught a lil of evolution just nw. pretty cool flick. heh. corny at some parts. am dying ta lay my hands on the blair witch files vcd. i wna buy it!! urghh.

i hope i'll get a job soon. my thoughts are allowed to flow too freely when im left at home to rot. nt a very good thing.

oh yes, oh yes. i bought a really neat shirt todayy. aft sucha long time of nt buying a new shirt. lol. it's super worth it. i lurve it ((:

wish me luck for the interviews tmr. may god bless me. amen.

nights pple :D

i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.

20041204
23:36

im in lurve with point-blogging. heh.

- went ard scouting fer jobs today.

- hedi almost stood me up agn. oh wells. nt the first time anyway.

- met her at 4pm.

- went tony roma's cos we cudnt find the notice we were looking for. dang.

- filled up application form. told ta go dwn fer an interview on mon.

- went brekz at marina sq. filled up application form. said they will call. we'll see. haha.

- nxt was swensen's at orchard.

- was scheduled an interview on mon, late evening.

- a pity hedi cudnt go cos her birthday is in late dec! hahahaha.

- i am 16 and she's not! whahahs. hw sad.

- went cafe cartel at raffles but they only hired 17 and abv. sighh.

- wanted nydc and nooch too but they had no vacancies. aww.

- went ta enquire at billy bombers and this gurl came back saying, "sry, we have enough vacancies."

- 'twas supposed ta mean tht thr were NO MORE vacancies lahh.

- what english was tht? hah.

- so i'll be waiting for brekz ta call and the interviews on mon.

- oh yeah, anybody who wants ta come along for the swensen's interview, contact me, yes?

- thks a whole lot (( :

- my feet's aching like hell nw tks to all the miles of walking.

- a lil exaggeration thr. lol.

blessed night everyone.

it's 21 days to x'mas. yays!

i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.

20041203
21:47

im too tired to write properly, so im writing in pt form. pardon me (( :
- went for class chalet at dwntwn on 1st dec.
- had fun screaming while watching sg idol. hahs.
- smelt so oily and smoky when i left the place. as usual. lol.
- taufik won. yayness. taufik rawks!
- down with sylvester. haha.
- towned with kula.
- finally bought my slippers. hw pathetic.
- kuls bought a pair of shoes but were of diff sizes!
- ran back from cine to far east. saw sylvester and taufik! omg :D
- but the shop closed by the time we got thr! wth.
- we almost caught shutter with nick n isaac but the show was too late [ 2130hrs ]. hw sad.
- went hme with my legs aching like hell tks ta kuls. boo. haha.
- swam at sgoon complex with kuls today morning.
- she was late. cos she forgot her phone. urgh. boo agn. lol.
- swam for abt 2hrs.
- am nw roasted. arms are red like i dno what. haha.
- went heartland ta lunch.
- kuls bought her xmas cd. she's a happy gurl nw. lol.
- she went ta change her shoes aft tht while i went hme ta ROT. heh.
- gna go job hunting tmr. i hope.
- i need a job oh-so-desperately cos xmas is coming! dang.

okayy. im so done with point-blogging. heh. im in nd of some serious shopping. am alrdy sick of town. any other suggestions, peeps? (( :

i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.

20041201
12:10

youu gurls rawk my day (( :

i lurve my srcc gurlies: jan, shena and cheryl.

i lurve val too but i dint see her tdy. hw sad.

we had loadsa fun walking aimlessly ard town tdy. dint manage ta find my slippers but i enjoyed my time with them. wholesome fun.

made lots of noise evrywhr we went bcos of cheryl. her voice is still as loud as ever. haha. plus we were like reminiscing those days we spent in safra. miss those days.

hw i wish i cud turn back time and be a pri sch student once agn, doing the silliest things with the gurls. hah.

but it's impossible so i've just gta make do with spending some time with them when we're all free. all of us are committed to at least smth.

shena: bowling ; jan: BAND ; cheryl: her BF? hahaha. and me? uhhs.. my rotten life. probably a job soon? god knws. sighh.

im rotting away infrnt of the comp blogging rubbish agn. hw interesting. NOT.

okayy, gtg have a gd night's slp before the class chalet tmr. no comments abt it. im just so sick of everyth now lahh. screw me.

im nt staying overnight anymore. doubt i'll be going on thurs cos it's like so freaking far and i dont feel like going escape.

lastly, me being a superbly filial daughter, am gna say this:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMSIE (( :

she's so glad im nt staying overnight cos this way, i can at least accompany her thru the last few hours of her burfdae. awww. hah.

oh yeah, im so burnt now. red like a cooked lobster. yeouch.

i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.