20041129
01:05
went grandma's ta celebrate my couz's burfdays. joint celebration. hah. one is turning 2, the other turning 11. yes. hahaa. captured the younger birthdae gurl's pic in my hp. she's sooooo cute. haha. but she still refuses ta call 'jiejie' when she sees me. naughty gurl. haha.
ate my fill today. i lurve my grandma's food. hahaa. i lurve her soup. so slurpiliciously good tht i drank one and a half bowls of it. made me so bloated. haha. had fun seeing my cousins do hilarious stuff and run ard like wild monkeys on the loose. as usual. hahaa. what to do? im like the oldest thr. 2 of my cousins dint turn up. like hw sad lahh cos i don't see them that often. haha.
evrything went well except the cake. nt very nice. it's like too sweet or smth. nt really to my liking lahh. apparently not to my grandma's and mumsie's liking too. haha. when my grandma asked us ta bring some cake home, i KINDLY rejected. haha. told her i was too full. oh wells.
so tmr's the 30th nov alr. cant wait for the class chalet on wed. but i feel so guilty for nt spending the day with my mum cos it's her burfdae. sighh. nvm. i shall make up to her. haha. guess i'll be staying overnight till thurs. im gna drag as many peeps along with me as possible. gurls, of cos. haha.
prolly goin swimming tmr aft sucha long time. i want a tan. haha. i knw i won't be able ta get one but i just want it. so badly. haha. hopefully tht gurl's sis recovers frm her fever or else the swimming trip's GONE. sighh. then i'll hafta go look for a job with juls tmr -pouts-.
oh yeah, hedi's probably so sad nw cos she's heading back hme tmr morning. hahaha. no more korea for her! i hope she brings back smth for me (( : i want kim rae won, kim jae won, moon geung young and uhhh.. all the korean movies, OSTs and cds. heh. greedy greedy me.
okayy, i shall end here cos im gettin really slpy. my dear mother woke me up at 11.18am today! i hardly slept between 6.30-9am!! was like tossing and turning endlessly till i finally felt so tired, thn she hadta wake me up. rahhh. and i must wake up early tmr morning if i want my swim. sighh. poor me. it's the hold but i don't get the amt of rest i WANT. urgh.
my current fave: [ a pretty old one ]
The Last Song
by All American Rejects
This may be the last thing that I write for long
Can you hear me smiling when I sing this song, for you, and only you
As I leave will you be someone to say good-bye?
As I leave will you be someone to wipe your eye?
My foot is out the door, and you can't stop me now
You wanted the best, it wasn't me
Will you give it back, and I'll take the lead
When there's no more room to make it grow
I'll see you again, you'll pretend you're naive
Is this what you want
Is this what you need
How you end up let me know.
As I go, remember all the simple things you know,
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song
The hearts start breaking as the year is gone
The dream's beginning and the time rolls on
It seems so surreal, now I sing it.
Somehow I knew that it would be this way,
Somehow I knew that it would slowly fade.
Now I am gone, just try and stop me, now.
You wanted the best, but it wasn't me
Will you give it back, now i'll take the lead
When there's no more room to make it grow
I'll see you again, you'll pretend you're naive
Is this what you want
Is this what you need
How you end up let me know.
As I go, remember all the simple things you know,
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song
Will you need me now ?
You'll find a way somehow
You want it too
I want it too
As I go, remember all the simple things you know,
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song
As I go, remember all the simple things you know,
My mind is just a crutch and I still hope
That you will miss me when I'm gone
This is the last song
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
20041124
22:45
im so boredd. like totally. i wna swim but evryone's outta town. hedi's in freaking korea, leen and moon's in cambodia. rahhh. poor leen. dno hw's she coping being single-handed. lol. okayy. tht's a lil mean. but i miss swimming with them! haha. nobody ta swim with me nw tht they're gone. awwww.
i've been stuck at home for the past few days. went sch today for the briefing. a waste of my time. hahaa. anyways, may be going yf's hse ta submit my application tmr. we'll see. dno wadta choose yet. 12 choices. very well. think i can barely fill 6 of them. crapp.
im so bored, im so bored, im so bored! im rotting at home. eat, sleep, read, go online, stone, slp. rahhh. madness. im being the hyper me todayy. dno why. must be joan's fault. made me say all that crap. nw she's gna have a headache frm figuring out hw to resolve the situation. god bless her. haha.
3 more days moon and leen will be back. another 5 more days and hedi will be back. ahhh. then we can dye our hair together. hw blissful. lol. kayy. im mad.
am off now. ciao!
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
20041123
21:51
seriously, nw tht im done with the exams, i feel so empty. it's like my life's lacking smth. seriously. another irony of life. oh wells.
okayy, so i went shopping with yf yestd. we went ps, citilink, suntec and thn compass pt. yes. we ARE mad. haha. managed to get the things i wanted and so did yf. spent quite alot. my juniors had better be pleased. n those silly friends of mine. hah.
so today i spent my time doing smth which i have not done for a long long time - art. yes. A R T. okay, i admit im no van gogh or picasso here but hey, at least i bother to fork out time and effort ta complete those crafts aighhts! hah. and the result of everything? pretty much purrfect. lol. okayy. three quads of it was good. thr was just a slight problem with my painting skills lahh. haha. anyways, the receiver won't mind, i just know it. hah. the aftermath of hours of putting pieces of things together: pain in thumb for squeezing the pathetic super glue [ rahhs! ], buttache for sitting too long on the hard wooden chairr and dizziness for looking dwn too much. bt it was rather worth it. i lurve my work ((:
anws, i had instants for dinner. wht can be worse than having instant noodles for dinner? having PLAIN instant noodles! urghh. it was so nt filling at all. it's like evry single strand of noodle got absorbed by the microvilli in my small intestine and transported via my hepatic portal vein to my lungs liver. oh crapp. in short, i'm still hungry. rahhh. anyone's so nice to buy me supper? haha. i wish i had a 24hr kitchen, 2 personal servants and a 24/7 confidante. oh yeahh, a cutesy lil terrier will complete the whole pkg really well. haha.
grt. my mum's having one of those blardy tantrums agn. sighh. she starts banging evryth in the hse. all i can do is to shut myself up in the room, blast the freaking radio and read my totally senseless and blatantly crude book. haha. wht a daughter. oh wells.
tmr's the pae briefing thing. gta reach sch by 9am. yawn. thr goes my 10 hr beauty slp. haha. thn i've gta find a day ta register online at yf's hse cos my freaking printer's spoilt just when i needed it most. hw wonderful. not.
oh yeah. tht day i towned with izzy, we saw this guy with his gurl strolling towards ps, infrnt of us. as usual, both of us were laughing like nobody's business and talking shit. for some reason, tht guy turned back a few times ta look at us. i mean, okayy, he meant no harm lahh. haha. he looked pretty cute and all bt he's attached lahh. so, wth. nt tht i care anyway. lol. thn the next day, i went sk library with mumsie and guess what? concidence of coincidences, i saw tht same guy! haha. man, i was totally laughing to myself cann! i was at one of the shelves and browsing this bk and he walked past with his gf and another gurl. thn i looked up n saw him. apparently, he felt me staring at him and so, he turned back ta look. then i got a shock and i guess he did too cos he had this stupid " it's you agn " face. lol. the whole episode's dang funny lahh. u will only understand it if u were me. haha. anws, this just goes to show tht sg is really pathetically small. yawnn.
man, i've said quite a lot alr. gta quit my habit of long windedness. haha. okayy so im off nw aft close to 50 mins of blogging. with intervals in betwn, duh. haha. ciao!
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
20041120
11:02
ahahahas. im free. pure liberation aft 2 mths of intensive mugging. gm's outta my life. no more taking 62 evry morning ta sch. woohooo. hahas. yes, i'm feeling too gay now. lol.
thank gdness chem ppr was manageable. i hope i'll be able ta secure at least a b3. i mean, i suck at chem. it's like one of my worse sciences. okayy. maybe bio is. thn again, phy is bad too. anyways, wth. lol. this time, bio was a flop. like.. tks a lot. haha. whatevrr. i'm swearing off all bks frm now on. TEXTbks. duh. lol.
towned with izzy yestd. walked from far east to ps. funn. had a grt time talking rubbish. we weren't talking sense. just said whatevrr that came into our minds. still rmb izzy saying that the istana has LIFEGUARDS instead of security guards. oh wells. amazing wht exams can do to ur brain.
i cant believe i dun have anyth ta do nw. i'm like.. slacking infrnt of the comp w/o knowing wadta do. any suggestions? oh yeah, i so wna go swimming and shopping. the weather these few days isn't exactly favourable. haha.
plans for today: spend time with mumsie. borrow some bks ta kill time. walk ard compass pt aimlessly. rot. yeahh. sounds good? haha.
i feel so sry for the sec 3s. i mean, i'm nt being sarcastic here. it's true. i'll nvr ever wna go thru the sec 4 phase of my life again. NEVER. it's so not a sweet sixteen yr. and when we're eighteen, some pple will still be mugging for their A's. hw sad is tht? the govt's depriving us of our youth! so many of us now have strands of white hair at the bare age of 12! thankfully, im nt tht unfortunate. lol.
moon n hedi wna dye their hair. asking me if i want to. well, i WANT to. but hw am i going sch nxt yr with my hair dyed? im so NOT gna dye my hair freaking BLACK. no way! we'll see abt tht. hopefully we'll be able ta find some temporary ones that'll last abt 24 days. according to moon, they do have. hahs.
oh wells, so much for nw. im off ta do some major rotting. so bored here. and im so jayded [ nt jaded ]. whahahs.
cheerios.
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
20041118
13:46
i'm gay. so totally gay. haha. tmr's the last day of the o's and frm thn on, i'll be an official graduand of secondary sch. woohooo. no more creaking hall floors, no more stuffy classrooms, no more jwong and most imptly, i'm soooo done with the big O's. right. toldcha im gay.
okayys, so im finally towning tmr. with izzy. oh cool. it has been ages since i last went out with her. gna go window shopping, make a list of things tht catch my attn, get hold of money and buy evrything on a wild shopping spree one day in town. sounds good. i'll do just tht. lol. somehow, i just cant wait for 6pm tmr. tralalas. im as happy as a lark nw. hopefully the chem paper tmr doesnt bring my mood dwn. wheee.
i've also made plans fer my hols. for nov, actually. gna spend 1 whole day slacking at joan's hse. swim, watch vcds, yakk, order pizza etc. the official slacking business. weets. im a happy laydee today. lol. oh yeah, if anyone wants ta book me fer the hols, i'll be ever so glad to entertain youu. lol.
im also gna go crashing town with the peeps i've known for ages. lyk for 10 yrs? haha. woohoo. we rawk. miss them truckloads. our gang used ta create loadsa trouble fer the managemt at safra. haha. but the pple thr love us too (= miss those times mann. haha.
so tmr's chem. the last paper. i cant wait. but judging frm my amaths p2 today, things dun seem so bright. haha. history sucked too. i barely understood the sources and i swear i dun even noe the policies of perestroika and glasnost. bt im better then yifang, at least i KNOW tht they are policies and nt just some names. whahahs.
wish me luck for the ppr tmr and all the best to me and my faltered hopes. hah. evrything's over nw. poor me. it's alrite, i'll recover (=
love love <3
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
20041113
16:31
a big hooray for the fault discovered in the bio paper!! they better gimme back my desired marks. i'm feeling hopeful once again (= oh yeah, they also realised tht thr were 2 equally correct answers in the paper 1 for a particular qsn. the homeostasis one. urghh. to think i spent so much time trying ta figure out which is the correct one. dang.
okayy so today's the last of my amaths intensive revision. im gna miss ms chee fer the nxt uhhms.. one and a half mths? yeah. lol. i'll see her agn in jan for cmaths tuition nxt yr. and hopefully for the nxt 2 yrs. whahahs. im nuts. oh wells. bt she's really the best teacher one can ever get. she rawks my maths! lol. gna miss seeing some peeps whom i've been seeing tha past 2yrs evry fortnightly. hahas. thn agn, maybe not. hahs.
hist paper's on nxt tues. thk god it's in the aftnn so i can memorise evrything tht morning. hahas. but sadly, yes VERY sadly, geog paper's on wed morning before phy. sighh. let's hope for the best. anyways, i've only done russia fer hist. believe it or not. guess im gna do germany and china nxt. still contemplating on whether or nt i shud study cold war. i mean, milestones offers seriously meagre info abt the cold war. guess i'll just toss the coin. lol.
chem's done for the time being and so is amaths. nw left with revision fer phy which is lyk triple ack! hist is brain pwr. i nd my chkn essence. hahs. dno why i'm a consistent combined humanities failure. so consistent. haha. oh wells. god bless me this time round.
it's sunday tmr and i guess im gna be stuck at home studying agn. OR trying ta study. lol. i've gt soooo many things stuck in my mind nw tht i can barely concentrate. i'm planning the things im gna do aft the o's, looking for available jobs [ yes! yours truly is gna work for a mth! ] and uhhs.. strategising fer sth else. oh wells. another 6 more days and i can declare myself olvls-free. nt v keen for tht day ta come though.
all gd things must come to an end huh? for eg, this post. whahahs.
kayys, it's been a long enough entry. for nw, im off ta face the 4 walls of my room agn and occasionally, enjoy the wonderful scenery of.. the other blk. hahas. adios.
p.s. this big moth came flying out of my curtain when i went into my rm last nite. it scared the hell outta me. nt tht im scared of it bt it just flew out all of a sudden. guess wad i did? slam the door, run out and scream for help. duh. haha. one note: moths are NOT easy to kill. prepare lyk half a can of insecticide if u're planning ta suffocate it to death. hahs.
love love <3
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
20041111
16:56
short and swt it shall be.
bio paper sucked. NO. nt the paper 1. i barely knew the ans to any qsn. thr goes my hope.
free from paper todae. happy deepavali ta evryone out thr! (= no gathering at moon's hse this yr. why? cuz we're all SUPPOSED to mugg. hahs.
sighh. it's 8 days till the end of evrything. YES. i mean EVERYTHING. these 8 days are the most impt days of mah life. it's now or never. it's yes or no. it's this or that. oh crapp.
i feel so lousy just typing that. im a damsel in distress. now, who's gna rescue me? urghh.
i wud give youu a smoochy smooch if u're able ta get my mind off things. will anyone try?
wht abt a hotter deal: i'll give u a smoochy smooch plus a cuddly hug and i'll tell u tht i lurve youu sooo much* if u're able ta get hold of what i'd been wanting for the past... uhh.. 7 mths. close.
any takers?
oh wells. another 8 days and it's the end of everything. it's either (= or =( geddit?
okayy. i've tried ta kp this short and swt now. i've no mood ta blog anyways. oh crapp.
skcosymkwaruuoy <3
*subjected to change.
p.s. no lyrics for this post cuz ziqian complained, or sth like that, abt me and my lyrics fever. oh wells. dun cry now. it ain't my fault. rmb tht. hahs.
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
20041109
00:27
i think im in nd of some serious self-control. i nda learn ta resist my temptations. sighh. it's bio tmr and im rather sick of it alrdy. if i were ta memorise evry blooming thing, it's like forcing stones dwn my throat. imagine the pain. besides, the hypnosis power of the text is amazing. just by reading 2 chapts, i get drowsy alr. yawwns.
as if 1 complaint isn't enuff, here's another: the emaths p2 sucked. it totally sucked. it literally sucked my brain cells out along with it. i expected lyk smth easier than wad i saw. i mean, it's like killing 3/4 of my brain! it took me uber long ta figure out lyk 3 qsns? n silly me rushed thru the last 3 qsns thinking tht the paper ended at 10am!! aft doing the last qsn, i looked up and to my disgust, saw this: EMATHS P2 8.00-10.30 i almost banged my head on the desk. but on the brighter side of this whole silliness, i managed ta finish the whole paper which some of my friends dint have time to. another thing, the qsn tht i discussed with yf before entering the hall actually came out! dang was it creepy! hahs. okayy, maybe nt the exact qsn but smth similar. it's lyk.. whoa! but i still dint noe howta do a part of it. i mean, i thot it wudnt come out. lol. sheer luck or what?
oh yeah, sara was eliminated out of 'america's nxt top model'. i feel so sad for her. i mean, altho she's lyk a page 3 model, her features are so sharp and i lurve her big hair!! omg. i felt sooo sad fer her. even tyra cried and apologised fer shattering her dreams. oh wells. life is unfair huh? so what if u've gt a perfect body? so long the judges dislike the way u look, u dun make the cut. poor gurl, she bawled her eyes out. her black mascara flowed dwn together with her tears, staining her beautiful face. i thought she wud win this season. but apparently not. looks lyk i've gta start rooting fer someone else. shandi? hahs. one nvr noes.
for now, i think it's time ta hit the notes again and start studying abt plants. it drives me berserk studying the germination and reproduction of plants. meiosis and mitosis crapp. for god's sake, it's nt like im aspiring ta be a botanist! urghh. for one, i hate the way nectar attracts bees, wasps and other flying things. eeeew. ultimate grossness. i hate bugs. and i also resent the way teachers give us back our experiments and long-due tests the day before our papers! modern teachers lack a sense of responsibility. like totally.
once again, may the papers be a breeze and may i obtain a perfect score fer my bio p1 tmr. amen (=
Fall to Pieces
by Avril Lavigne
I looked away
Then I looked back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today is the day
I pray that we make it through
Make it through the fall
Make it through it all
And I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you
You're the only one
I'd be with 'til the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms
And I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you
Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means
Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything
Everything
I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
And I don't want to talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
'Cause I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
20041107
15:00
okayy, so it's like.. *counting..* 12 more days to a lifetime, no, a month time of freedom? woohooo. aft these 12 days, i can officially say gdbye ta secondary sch life. looks like thruout my sec sch life, i've been studying for just this major exam. how sad is that? ohwells. it's almost over now.
looking back, i think i'll really miss gm. nt the teachers, though. bt i must admit i'll miss SOME of them. i'll miss my beloved wonderful juniors!! sobbs. i really miss them loads alr! altho i used ta procrastinate abt the big fat conductor and the long practice hrs, i'm starting ta miss them. i miss holding my clarinet, engaging in empty, pointless conversations with yf and my juniors and most of all, i miss the times we'd spent rehearsing for every event, big and small. the musical will be one perf i'd nv be able ta forget. nxt, the thanksgiving rehearsals.. dang. i'm missing so darn much i think im gna cry on r.o.d. sighh. i hope there's gna be another chalet during the hols (=
besides band, i think im gna miss the pecs too. aft all, i'd spent 4 yrs with most of'em, organising inter-class games, pfts, during camps and again, engaging in empty talk. hahas. they're a bunch of really active beings with a heart for fun. i'd definitely rmb those times spent at obs with my fellow armstrong-ers, plus the best of the best instructor thr: yvonne melissa phillips. i've still yet ta get her contact. rmbed missing her loads aft the camp. i was on the brink of tears when we reached punggol jetty n seeing her leave in the boat just made ALL our hearts uhh... cry? haha. yes, it has been a really gd experience. obs rawks!
okayy, this entry seems pretty long enough and i think it's time fer me ta start mugging. emaths p2 tmr. will only be touching maths later tonite. now, it's bio, bio and MORE bio for me. im so biologified nw. hahas. the past papers were pretty manageable and i hope i can really score n tht thr'll be no moderation or whatsoever.
till then, all the best to the o-levellers out thr and may the papers be a breeze (=
Only One
by Yellowcard
Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one
Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone
And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one
Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone
Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one <3
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
