20041029
11:35
i'm trying ta mugg real hard fer the o's bt i just cant bring myself to. can hardly concentrate. i hope all goes well and i'd be able ta make it to a relatively good jc. otherwise, it's the poly route for me. nt tht im against it or anyth bt i just find another 3-4 yrs of tertiary education a waste of time. 2yrs in jc and -wham!- i'll be into uni. tht's like half the time. and plus, jc's more of a guaranteed route to uni anyway.
sometimes i really wished thr was sucha thing as brainwashing. tht i cud just forget abt evrything else and focus on mugging. oh wells. life's nt always a bed of roses. i'd prefer life as a bed of cushions though. roses are lyk.. thorny. yeahh. lol.
i feel so pathetic tht i hafta kp my spirits up by thinking of wad im gna do aft the o's. here's a brief idea: clean-up wardrobe ; pple-watch ; pigging-out fest ; swimming ; tanning ; to the gym ; makeover [ in and out thru ] ; revamp my room ; clear my notes ; sell my bks ; buy my juniors gifts for r.o.d ; class chalet ; snip my hair [ again ] ; spend time wiv jacq darL (= ; watch a gd movie ; get a new mobile ; declare myself BOOKS-FREE !!
it sounds lyk a whole list of things ta do, bt it kps me occupied and uhhs.. yeah. besides, it's nt a chore anyway (= .
okayy, 'nuff said, im back ta my bks again. it's major ss day fer me. gta finish evrything today so tht i can concentrate on others the nxt 2 days. hahs. takkare peeps and, dun miss me! muahahas.
True
by Ryan Cabrera
I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
that you belong with me.
you might think
I don't look
but deep inside in the corner of my mind
I'm attached to you.
I'm weak
it's true
cause I'm afraid to know the answer
do you want me too?
cause my heart keeps falling faster.
[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
i'ts time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true.
you don't know
what you do
everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move.
I'm weak
it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
do you see me too?
do you even know you met me?
[Chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
its time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true.
I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
the way that's true.
[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
its time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true.
iLu <33
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
20041013
22:45
okayy. a thousand and one apologies to chinhang and leen whom i've seemingly forgot ta include their names in my well-wishers n marche list respectively. i am so so so sorry, aight? lol. stop protesting! lol.
anyways, the past few days in sch were pretty ptless bt i just went for tha sake of uhhs.. going? yeahh. oh wells. thr's gta be a reason smwhr. hahas. go figure. the only lessons i find worth attending are PE [ exercise!! ], history and probably english? lol. the other teachers just went in ta fulfill their duties. oh wells. guess evryone's given up on teaching alr. yestd's attendance was 20 wiv 21 absent. today was 15 with.. [ go do yr math ] absent. bt it wasnt so bad. played capt's ball and badminton during PE. havent played bdmnton fer a long long long time. hahs. bt i still played reasonably well. -beams-
i feel so pitiful being the last ta leave the sch. okayy, nt exactly the last bt ONE of the last pple. lol. the others have exam and get ta leave sch aft their papers. N lvl pple are free frm their exams and get an early holiday! urghh. dang. bt they've gt next yr ta go thru whereas i'd be so done with my o lvls by 19th nov, 1700 hrs!! woohoohoo. lol. hope i'll do really well. gta start mugging real hard n hence, i declare my blog temporarily shut unless thr's really a special occasion n urgent nd ta blog. yupp.
okayys, i've gtg nw. been feelin' rather tired lately, gta catch some slp. goin sch tmr. last few days ta 'feel' the sch, see the teachers, see some pple and.. be together wiv da noisomes. oh wells. sadness. off i go! zooms
oh yeah, before tht, i just wna share this wonderful song:
To Be With You
Hold on little girl, show me what he's done to you
stand up little girl, a broken heart can't be that bad
when its through, its through
fate will twist the both of you
so come on baby, come on over
let me be the one to show you
I'm the one who wants to be with you
deep inside i hope you feel it too (feel it too)
waited On A Line Of Greens And Blues (Waited On A Line)
just to be the next to be with you...
Build up your confidence, so you can be on top for once
wake up who cares about, little boys that talk too much
i've seen it all, go down
the game of love was all rained out
so come on baby, come on over
let me be the one to hoooooooold you............
I'm the one who wants to be with you
deep inside i hope you'll feel it too (feel it too)
waited On A Line Of Greens And Blues (Waited On A Line)
just to be the next to be with you...
Why be alone, when we can be together baby
you can make my life worth while, i can make you start to...
smile...
When its through, its through
the faith will twist the both of you
so come on baby, come on over
let me be the one to show you...
I'm the one who wants to be with you (i'm the oooone)
deep inside i hope you'll feel it too (feel it too)
waited On A Line Of Greens And Blues (Waited On A Line)
just to be the next to be with you...
just to be the next to be with you, whooo!!!!
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
20041009
23:59
okay.. i dint wna blog today bt since it's a special occasion, i shall. i nw officially declare tht YOURS TRULY IS SWEET SIXTEEN!!! yay. i can finally watch nc-16 movies =) i sooooo wna watch 'art of the devil' and 'oujia board'.. woohoo. lol.
anyways, i had grt fun todae. i owe it to those pple who treated me ta marche! -beams- i'd lyk ta thank -ahem- the following peeps: izzy, moon, yf, hedi, alvin then, wenhuai, chinhang and amos for the tantalizing treat todae. plus the oreo cheesecake. hahas. plus the loadsa laughter. lol. i really had fun. a swt sixteen celebration indeed -grins-
oh yeah, i also saw the sg idols outside cineleisure. some lime's birthday bash thingy. the lime mag is 8! haha. the idols sang a birthday song. to me!! I WISH. lol. bt i saw chris!! ahhhh.... he's so cute! lol. yeah. got a few snapshots of it. chk it out. wiv compliments to hedi's cam n alvin's phototaking. lol.
just ta tell u hw lovely my friends are, i'm gna list the names of those who wished me a happy swt sixteen =) : samuel yeo, alvin then, yongyuan, amos, adora, samantha, enna, jonathan [h31], joan, isaac, izzy, hedi, lionel, gektheng, my aunt, leen, melvyn, alvin yeo, jacq darling, mandy, aizhu, chiwai, mr lian, stella, joyce, ziqian, marc wan, gerald, shenghui, lynette and rasyidin. i guess tht's abt all. altho' some frenz fergort, i still luv'em anyway. hahas.
i lurve the noisomes loads man! we rawk =)
luv y'all <33
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
20041004
20:06
okayys. here ta give a quick update. ohwells. dooms day todae. doomed indeed.
HOWEVER...
i still managed ta scrape thru the first 3 mths. with luck. gd news i guess. bt the prob is, whr am i going? ryte. with suck a detestable grade lyk mine, whr can i go? urghh. hope they moderate smth soon. oh yeah, i passed my chem prac -yay!- =) but i failed bio prac. dangit.
life sucks. i really shud've mugged harder. nt gna say anymore, im off ta do some lil' mugging.
oh yeah, and that gary frm adam khoo's technologies thingy, he's good. bt i'd still prefer adam over him. oh heck. it dint really motivate me lyk THAT much anyway. hahs.
okayys, off nw. cy'all!! <3
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
20041003
22:15
another wk gone n nt much muggin done. oh crapp. im so dead. somehw i just cant drag myself ta study. i kp thinking tht thr's tmr and thn when tmr comes, thr'll be ANOTHER tmr, and then when the nxt day comes... u get it. hahs. so thr i have my wasted wk. what did i do? nth. oh grt. yawn.
tks had their prom last fri. whr's ours? i dno. thr probably wun be one. even if thr was, doubt the response wud be good. aft all, why wud anyone in d right frame of mind wna attend the prom organised by maggie mee? urghh. tht thought simply disgusts me =X
anyway, thr's smth i wna say: i saw ronald susilo and li jiawei walking hand in hand at suntec yestd!! tell me i'm a lucky gurl. lol. i dint realise it was him until i confirmed it wiv my friend. oh wells. they're really compatible. a match made in heaven indeed. im green wiv jealousy n wallowing in self-pity. boohoos. he saw me looking at him -beams- isaac is so utterly jealous tht i saw li jiawei. a pity i dint have a cam wiv me. muahahahas.
and todae, i went j8 wiv hedi fer some supposedly shopping business. window shopping. okayy. so i bought pens frm muji. again. thn we saw fann wong thr. she was havin some kinda activity. her fanntastic fann club really disgusts me. dno which part of her they worship. urghh. anyway, we realised the arcade has closed dwn, tht's lyk.. so sad. okayy, we wanted ta destress by hitting some games lyk bishi bashi or sth, bt since the arcade was closed, we cudnt. dangit.
thn hedi kpt pestering me ta buy tht mu-ee clip wiv her. oh wells. and she went ard saying, " i buy for u, i buy for u.. burfday present." uhhhs... hahas. n i went ard replying, " no, nvm, it's okay..." crapp'd up. lol. she's a lil' kiddo. hahs.
tmr's dooms' day. wish me luck. i NEED all tha luck i can get. oh wells. let's see whether how i fare tmr. i bet it's gna be much negative. oh crapp. this sucks. why dint i study a lil' harder? -slaps myself- urghhh. urghhh. urghhh.
gta run now. feeling slpy. dint space out todae. no wonder smth's missing. hahs.
cheerios <33
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
20041001
21:19
great. it's the wkends yet again. i seem ta dread the wkends nowadays. i lurve sundays though, cuz it's kinda lyk the start of a new wk. bt thn again, nxt monday ain't gna be a pleasant day. i just knw it. hahs. i nd all the luck i can get man!
anyways, i had grt fun lunching wiv da noisomes [ minus shan ] yestd at tm's ljs. made lotsa noise. had fun lahh. havent had such fun wiv the gurls fer a long long tym now. sighh. nw we're gna start mugging again. dang. i hate the o's. DOWN WITH THE O's!! gna study again tmr. the BIG prob is, i don't know wadta study. my weirdoness is acting again. crappified. yeah. but i really don't. hw sad. probably the sciences. sighh.
turning swt sixteen soon *hint hint*. dno if it's gna be swt or not. bt who cares? it's only tha prelims ryte? the o's is the BIGGER deal. ryte. i dno. im havin mixed feelings abt this. first 3mths, in or not? sighhh. i hope god blesses me wiv pretty reasonable results. just anyth below 20 will do. even 20 will do fine. really. urghh.
kayys. gta run nw. mug mug mug.. todae's late nite friday again. TGIF. not. arghhh. im tearing my hair out. overstressedd. totally. im gna go berserk with all these studying. one day, u'll see me in IMH. i promise. hahahas. probably, VERY probably though, i won't be the only one there. i'm bound ta have company. haha. okayy. im off nw. feeling guilty fer slacking the whole dang day mann. arghhh. adios!
love, love <3
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
