20040429
16:53
todae's da 2nd day i was caught in the rain. like... wow! so fun? *rolls eyes* still havin tuition lata. sickening. urgh. sickening freako. freako sickening. hmmm. as usual, ms lam had her impromptu last min xtra bio class habit again. AGAIN. she's soooo irritating cann! urgh. thank god band has stopped for the mid yrs. cant be any happier. haha. mid yrs r coming. AaArRrGGGHHh. so stressed up! *sigh* im lyk super bored now. alot of things to blog but forgot. wadeva. goin off lahhs. bye! haha.
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
20040425
00:01
hilda is boredd. really boredd. *sigh* had my orals todae. i think i totally screwed up my chinese oral. it was really trashy like anyth. fancy asking me some qsn on modelling?! wth. i was like sooo... stunned? at the qsn, that is. sickening! thank god my eng oral wasnt THAT bad. think i'll be able to score? i hope. haha. dorcas ong was pretty nice. let's hope she doesnt show her favouritism to moonisha! hees. went ta mac during the 1hr+ brk betwn the both orals to sit down n talk. stupid capt sha chased us out. like.. what the?! but who cares. i've got plenty of time to kill newae. so i went mac wiv izzy, shan, jon n alvin chua. dont ask me why we asked the guys along. we were all bored. so darn BORED. haha. came back home straight aft my orals. had lunch. tried ta study bio but fell aslp after a few mins. lol. i slpt for 1hr. got up, ate smth n hit the bks again. managed ta study just one chapt the whole day. sheesh. haha. grt achievement, though. a BIG chapt cann! hees. then i flipped thru the chinese shou ce while watching tv san jie ke. had dinner. then i came online. till now. pretty late huh? but it's a sat nite. who cares! saturday nite fever aiights! *grins* just realised i havent been shopping fer wks. guess i'll hafta leave that till i finish my mid-yrs. *sigh* life is a drag nowadays. my motivations ta wake me up in the morning are not mine. sobs. haha. dang. im goin nuts. downloaded a few MVs n video clips on 'young bride'. starting my all-things-korean nonsense again. AGAIN. haha. wad can i say? kim raewon n moon geunyoung rawk! geunyoung is suuuppppeeerrr duuupppeerrrlly pretty, cute n just wonderfully adorable!!! haha. im soooo jealous. hmph. krw is really cute too. in a diff sense. haha. he looked humourous in the MVs n trailers. hmm. cant wait fer it ta arrive in sg. then i can watch it, buy the OST n buy the vcd. wahahaha. must start saving. hees. gdness. i think i've blogged a little too much. haha. rambling style todae. hees. kkays. shall end my piece here. god bless evryone out there. may u peeps do well in ur exams!! haha. hilda has officially gone bonkers. someone pls call 911.. lalala *cross-eyed*
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
20040423
20:41
havent been blogging for yonks, i knoe. im lyk so totally bored these few days cann! urgh. but im real glad that i'd manage ta do a brief studying of my chem. yes. ALL 25 chapts of them. haha. sooooo darn proud of myself man! hees. had a few tests this wk. almost flunked my chinese. a whopping 29/50! wth. i havent gotten so low for my whole 4yrs in gm okae! *sigh* it's really time ta start studying my chinese. then again, i still hav my bio. my history. and my ss. oh yes, waddabt my double maths? hmm. what i tragic life i lead. it's only abt 1 more wk plus to my mid yrs. im soo darn stressed up! doubt i'll be able to do well. v paranoid this yr. dunnoe why. always feeling that smth bad will bestow me one day. one day. havin my prelims oral tmr. BOTH eng n chi. r the teachers nuts or what?! they afraid that there wun be any time for the orals? my gdness! thank god todae was the last band prac. i dint go. went for the conquering the peak thingy and then the physics NSW mock test. really lame. last day of the pccg prog. said three cheers for mark [our guide/mentor]. he's a really cool n nice guy. haha. has a high tolerance lvl, i must say. hees. my hw is piling up a whole lot. time ta start clearing up the pile! study, homework, tests. these r the things i live my life ta do. how pathetic! dont remind me. eEW. oh yes. we [F42] gave mrs chang a "hope u're feeling better" card. i cut out the 'hope' and 'ure'. haha. did it during her period. gave it to her aft we left the wesley hall, when we were dismissed frm the peak thingy. she was touched. soooo touched, i must say. she'd better be anywae. haha =X im soooo bored now. lost interest in evrything. hmmm. i've found a new motivation for getting up early in da mornin n taking da bus. hees. lalala.
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
20040417
21:04
had sucky band perf todae. it really sucked. ng made us do soooo much warm ups till we're totally drained out when the actual perf started. what is WRONG with him? urgh. played till i had a sore throat can! terrible. aft that, went fer flag day. same places. again. orchard n ps. had pretty much donations. haha. when we [izzy, me, leen, shan, yf, moon] were at ps, we played wiv the imac thingy. supposed ta compose ur own music. really fun! haha. the software's called garagebox or smth. yahhs. totally cool, dude! hees. they also donated fer us. that's why we stepped in. lol. the pple there were pretty nice, i must say. haha. v patient n kind. yehhs. during the flag day, me n yf deposited our band shoes wiv mr koh in da conference rm. haha. den when i went ta collect, ah nia [mrs chang] was there. she asked mr koh: "what is she hiding here?" den she gave me that cheeky look. haha. lame lahh she. it's sooo unfair why they got the SUPER-ULTRA COLD air con, and we hafta travel ard s'pore fer donations. urgh. oh yahh. also went ta make my specs todae. really cheap one. haha. my degree increased like.. a lot? haha. nt really lahh. by 25 on my rite. but it decreased by 30 on my left. weird. hmm. kays. that's all fer todae. -outSs-
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
20040416
20:20
evryone's coming ta sch wiv muscle aches here n there. thanks to the pft i guess. *shrugs* i dint take it. waha. still had mass pe this morning. the teachers don't spare us! wth is their problem? urgh. i feel so guilty now for still being online. supposed ta start studying already. but once im online, i cant get offline. that's the freaking problem. horrid me. oh yahh. this MP of macpherson, mathias yao, is gna be at our sch tmr. we're having our CIP. some 'Love Macpherson' thingy. sounds so terrible. having flag day. again. like duh! but i guess it's gna be tons better than our band perf! cant believe ms jhnson is sooooo super unreasonable. she wants us to wear our full band uniform just ta perform fer less than 30 mins? soooo darn irritating cann! urgh. i hate her! i just simply dislike her! god bless our perf tmr. it's gna suck. but it's gna tear the wesley hall down. we'll blast like crazy. the stupid place has echoey walls. but who cares. wth man.
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
20040414
22:08
kpt laughing on the bus home wiv juliana aft amaths tuition. we were lyk laughing for no apparent reason? yarhh. we were nuts. who cares. haha. im so bored nowadays. the upper sec had their pft todae. girls ran 2.4, boys did the stations. was assigned duty fer the 2.4km lap count. errr basically was just to ensure that they dun cheat n all that crap? yarhh. doing the same stuff tmr. again. but tmr will be the guys. i hope i'll be taking da sec 4s? at least i noe them better. took the sec 3 gurls todae. hmm.. had a diff time looking fer them. but it wasnt that bad lahhs. haha. spent most of my time talking ta nadzirah. haha. she's fun. yarhhs. we procrastinated n encouraged the runners. hees. talked ta ms lam fer awhile. well she just sat on the chair nxt to us n started asking us qsns. we dint hav a choice, did we? lols. hist test tmr. cold war. hardly studied. barely noe my facts. but i cant be bothered. it's such a chore! urgh. oh yahh. got back my emaths mock test. quite satisfied i must say. considering the fact that i slept at 8pm the nite before, had a TERRIBLE migraine, 5 pple in my class failed n the paper wasnt easy, i did well. haha. at least i got a borderline A1? waha. was soooo damn shocked n elated cann! hees. must work hard. haha. my loci qsn was wrong. forever. dunnoe why. *sigh* gtg slp now. hafta wake up early tmr. help ta set up da pft stuff. urgh. god bless me fer my hist test tmr =) oUtSsS- -
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
20040411
22:43
happy burfdae joannie sweets! lol. im bored to death! the 3-day "holiday" is over! aRgHhH. i havent done my chinese jian bao! dang. i havent packed my bag too. oh double DANG. did nth todae besides tuition. hmm. amaths test tmr. hardly revised. im too sick of it. n im tooooo lazy. possessed by the spirit of sloth i guess. wahaha. rcc's lesson tmr. single period. whew. double ss. eew. i'm sooo darn sick of sch. pissed wiv jwong, lessons, sucky teachers n evrything! even recess has lost its meaning. *sigh* can't wait ta get out of gm. the day i graduate wud be the happiest day during my 16 yrs of life on this earth. yehhs. in the meantime, i shud learn to bear with it first. im gna stop going to sch after my prelims. do self-revision at home. yehhs. last but nt least, DOWN WITH JWONG!! muahahaha.
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
20040410
22:32
bridge n chorus of Stuck On You
Every now and then
When I'm all alone
I be wishing you will call me on the telephone
Say you want me back
But you never do
I feel like such a fool
There's nothing I can do..
I'm such a fool
For you
I can't take it
what am i waiting for?
my hearts still breaking
I miss you even more
And I can't fake it
The way I could before
I hate you, but I love you
I can't stop thinking of you!
It's true
I'm stuck on you
i simply lluuurrrvvveee this song. i'm STUCK on it. haha. but then again, i'm also stuck on the reason by hoobastank, eternal memory by lena park, stuck in my heart by c21 n the list goes on... n on.. haha. newae, i did nth much todae. managed ta study a little bit. wad to do? hafta aim fer a gd jc rite? *sigh* seriously, an o lvl student has NO LIFE. at all. hmm. junkai called n helped ta advertise fer srjc. again. the 2nd time frm him n the 3rd advertiser i've heard. haha. izzit really THAT fun? hmm. i shud try before condemning it lahhs. haha. but i think it shud be fun. so i'm aiming fer a jc. srjc doesn't sound too bad actually. really. it's convenient. very. n the pple dere r very nice. i heard. let's hope so. lol. kays. gtg. peace outSs.
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
What Finding Nemo Character are You?
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FROZEN QUEEN/ KING
You dont want love to come through to you. You like
it the way you are. To be unreachable, no need
to show feelings. Hiding everything inside you.
You are already used to it. You say yourself
that you dont need anyone, that you stand on
your own two feet or that you dont have time
for these things. But in reality you are scared
to get hurt. You feel save where you are: by
yourself, nobody can hurt you there. You
invent your own relationship in your dreams.
You just need to know that you COULD get a
partner.
Thats it.
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Your: Wondering eyes. Your not quite focused and
your quite the day dreamer. Your a bit odd and
as many say "Your head is in the
clouds."
What type of eyes do you have?
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My inner child is sixteen years old!
Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.
How Old is Your Inner Child?
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i'm turning sixteen! so i'm acting my age! woohoo! haha. to all u freakos out there who says im childish:
I AM NOT! wahahaha. kays. enuff crap. details.. went walking ard the city hall area wiv kula todae. went esplanade, suntec, citilink, chijmes etc. had a grt time. played wiv da digi cam she borrowed. haha. pics turned out pretty alrite. but some were really dark. sigh. newae, im feeling peaceful now. no more arguments. mummy dearest said sorry to me this morning n she hugged me. awww.. how swt rite? haha. get jealous u pple out there =P rite. im feeling slpy n tired now. thank god no band tmr! yay!! finally one satuday prac is off! what more can i ask for? haha. still hafta complete tons of undone hw. study. n tuition. urgh. but todae's a grt day. i lurve todae! i reached home at 10. haha. shud hav been earlier if i dint make sooo many rounds ard my hse just to find a shop that was still open n which sells the chi newspaper my mum wanted n i-wkly. a big waste of time n energy. haha. but it's a fun day. yay.
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
20040408
22:00
life is unfair. u will nv get what u want frm it. things that u want do nt belong to u. things u dun want just has ta come running back to u. always. life sucks. it really does. at least for me. it's time fer me ta resign to my fate. no pt fighting on. smtimes i just feel like givin evrything up. this world is prejudiced. alwaes based on first impressions. whether u like it or nt. u cant change much of what others think abt u based on ur first impression. why does it hafta be like that? it's soo darn unfair. im so effing pissed. i only use that word when im dead darn angry, upset n filled wiv hatred. somebody has stepped on my tail todae. my mother. my BELOVED mother. urgh. she just went berserk over some stuff. like wth man! blame evrything on me? fine! i shut up. n when i do that, she forces me ta talk! wad shit is this? it's lyk as though only SHE is undergoing some form of pressure n i'm nt? wad a selfish mother. can't she the least spare a thot for me? i already look as though im gna die aft todae's hectic schedule. now she comes n malign me wiv EVERYTHING! i told myself ta gedagrip. im nv gna cry. nt infrnt of her at least. smtimes i just wish this world wud collapse. or at least, i collapse. being in a hospital is much much better than being in a tension-filled dungeon. im so darn crashed. it's a bad dae todae. nth went right. evrything was wrong for me. n i mean everything. maundy thurs. gd news wk. i doubt so. it has been a pretty bad news wk fer me. smtimes i wished i was dead. at least i dun hafta go thru all these pain n sufferings. im trying ta be optimistic but the crisis im in now does nt give me a chance to. i feel as though the whole world hates me. i don't belong here. the sense of belonging is nt here. at all.
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
20040406
18:52
The day i will never forget,
is when you talked to me.
looking in your eyes,
i know you're the one for me.
you're nice, funny n cute.
i just cant imagine me without you,
i cant stop thinking about you.
all day i have you in my mind.
just had dinner. duck rice. quite yummy but kinda sick of it already. haha. had band todae. sectionals. i went there to slack. lyk what's da use? wasting my blardy time only. *sigh* went home in da middle of our sectionals. i just cudn't take the torture. i hate band. i totally HATE it. an advice to all u wanna-be musicians: NVA EVR JOIN BAND AS UR CCA! seriously, u will only learn to regret if u dun heed my advice. music was supposed ta be soothing n all. but now, just the mere sight of the scores n mr ng's pocked face, im sooo darn disinterested n i'll hav my migraine acting on me. again. tell me how worse can my situation be? urgh. darn it. im missin my pri sch days. dunnoe why. a sudden thot. strange. oh yes. i found out smth todae. all my friends are WEIRD. they hav the most unique n toot views of life. wanting ta be coffin sellers, being a spinster n all. they're just weird. god knoes why. i wna noe why too. am i the only sane one here or am i together wiv'em? smtimes i wonder. hmm..
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
20040405
21:33
The Reason
by Hoobastank
I'm not a perfect person
As many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
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dint do much todae. went ta sch. stayed back fer amaths xtra lesson and went home ta slack. havent studied at all. nada. darn. im just too lazy. band tmr. i'm obliged ta go. non-voluntary. they dun spare the sec 4s! screw them.
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
20040404
22:19
ONLY THOUGHTS OF LOVE
I rarely say, "I love you."
But, if I did
IF I were the type
Inclined to such emotional eruptions
And vocal expression
What would I say to you?
I would probably say
It has been a long time since I have been in love
Or since I even thought I loved.
So long, in fact,
I am not sure I know what love is, anymore
Or if I ever really knew.
But, if I even thought I loved someone,
I think it would be you.
double tuition day todae. thank god it'll be the last xtra lesson fer amaths. aft this, selva's gna hav her xtra lessons. urgh. spking of her, she told us a whole lot of crap todae. made us laugh lyk shit. so mean of her to laugh at da gurl who pronounced armature as arm-mature. poor her. but come ta think of it, it was pretty funny. i laughed lyk shit there myself. felt my face burning. haha. the way the gurl said it n the wae selva laughed it's like.. omg. first time i'd seen selva laughed her head off. she almost did. lol. then she told us a story bout a sherperd boy n his sheeps. v lame. but humourous. den she said that we're lyk da sheeps. how mean! lol. enuff of her. newae, dint do much todae. went popular ta buy foolscap n den went home. sky was overcast this evening. such a beautiful weather man! haven't seen or smelt rain for a long time. haha. i'm goin nuts. sch again tmr. gtg slp. v v tired. eyes shutting anytime now. *eyes shut*
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
Lost but never found
I lost my teddy bear
but I found it
I lost my charm bracelet
but I found it
I lost my shoe
but eventually found it
but then I lost you
as sad as it sound
but your love was lost
but never found
had band todae. again. it's soooo darn boring. the hrs are long n exhausting n yet, the rewards are crap. n i mean crap! we hafta 'toil' so hard for da musical n yet, get no cca pts. at all. zero pts! can't they be more reasonable? urgh. gm sucks. really lking forward to the dae i leave this sch. pity my juniors. still haf at least a yr to go. AT LEAST. poor them. but then again, i survived 4 yrs of gm life. so it isn't a BIG deal aft all. however, wiv jwong now, survival in there is getting really tough. u can survive one semester but u can't survive a yr. *sigh* jwong sux. gedalife man! nobody wants ta see ur freaking face n hear ur sickening voice. u give us headaches n spoil the mood of evryone's morning. u suck. u suck. down wiv da jwong reign. the reign of terror. shit. double tuition tmr n im still blogging. todae's compre was crap. barely understood the passages. some education stuff. too profound fer me ta understand. emaths was also crap. left one blank. dint noe howta do 1mk qsns. shame on me! can't blame me though. i only studied this morning! i slept at 8pm last nite. im soooo proud of mahself. yehhhs. *boogie woogiess* im feeling so irky now. any mere thing can get me irritated. dint study todae. gna die during my mid-yrs. self-study is a sure thing fer me. YIKES. must really start studying frm todae onwards. i wan damn gd results. i wna reach my dream! hurhur. it seems pretty impossible at this pt of time. WHATEVER.
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
20040402
19:18
had our 2nd X-country meet todae. ran 3.2km ard macritchie. tiring n exhausting! at the end of it all, i was practically ready to collapse anytime. n i almost did. really. haha. but by god's grace, i managed ta clinched the 16th position. quite satisfied lahhs. haha. tho' i dint manage ta get a trophy (top 10), a collar pin for souvenir is pretty good enuff. lol. mitchell emerged as da champion hse. last yr was lau. this yr lau's 2nd. *sigh* so sad. but as usual, means was last. wahaha. no offence to all u meanies =P i'm now havin a terrible headache. dunnoe why. hope it'll go awae soon. still hafta study fer my mock exam thingy tmr. eng n emaths. URGH. the teachers just wun let us off man. terrible. kkaes. gtg study. headache acting again. terribly. *zoOms*
i'd cheat destiny just to be near you.
